Horoscope

I am not one to normally read horoscopes let alone believe in them but I picked up a free copy of OK! Magazine somewhere and read this horoscope for last week that is actually pretty accurate.

Cancer: From Wednesday on, be alert to opportunities and be prepared to move fast. Certainly you're discouraged by recent events, but all in takes is one piece of good fortune to change things for the better. Your task is to recognize that luck, and to vanquish your doubts. You'll be particularly successful if you involve the person closest to you. In this case, two heads are worth twice as much.

Seems appropriate given my week last week.

Birthday Flowers

Chris sent me the prettiest pink roses today for my birthday. I thought I would share a picture. Sorry the picture is crappy but I took it with my blac.k.ber.rry.

Thank you Chris!

Crazy Day

I was actually looking forward to writing a post to update you on the news we got today. We got picked by a birth mom in our state but about 5 hours after we got the call I got another call to tell us that she had already changed her mind. Once our case worker called her back and told her how excited we were she started having second thoughts and her parents agreed to help her out so she decided that she wants to parent the baby girl after all. I guess we are "lucky" it happened now instead of right before the baby was born, or worse yet, after the baby was born, but it still hurts a little. At least we finally got picked. I was looking just this morning at a new agency and considering giving them a try. I think I'll stick with ours a bit longer and see what happens.

Birthday and Other Thoughts

My 38th (yikes!) birthday is on Wednesday (7/16) and when I look back at my life its pretty good. I am obviously not exactly where I wanted to be given that we still only have one kid, but overall things are pretty good. I have a great job that I love and that gives me a lot of flexibility. I have a husband that I love dearly. I have the most precious son I could have ever hoped for. He is truly a gift from God that I treasure every day.

Happy birthday to me!

Three Strikes

I met with the surgeon yesterday and he said that although he loves to perform surgery and would love to look more closesly at my strange anatomy, he did not think that surgery would help at all. He said that I have three things going against me: my uterine anomoly, my poor ovarian reserve and the adhesions. He did not think the benefits would outweigh even the remotest risk of surgery. This officially ends our TTC. I am more focused than ever in making our profile more appealing (although for the life of me, I can't find a reason why it is not appealing as it is).

The girl that my dad knows (see prior entries about her) is still interested in adoption (although she has not submitted any of the paperwork to our agency). I actually spoke to her a week or so ago and she is a really sweet. I continue to hope and pray that it works out with her. My two biggest concerns are the birth father (they are no longer together and do not get along at all and she is not sure he will consent to the adoption) and her lack of prenatal care. Based on the math that I did, her due date would be around early October but she hasn't seen a doctor other than going to the hospital when she was about 9 weeks. I am hoping that if we get officially matched, that our agency can help her get signed up for state insurance so she can get the care that she and the baby deserve. If you are the praying kind, please say a prayer for her and the baby. Even if she decides to parent herself, she needs prayers.

Homestudy Update

We had our home visit yesterday for our home study update. Our social worker told us numerous times that he has only had to do 2 - 3 three updates for couples who without referrals with our agency. He went on to say that he does not understand why we do not have a referral yet. We are going to seriously look at our profile and pictures and see if we need to change anything. We've been live on the web site for over 10 months and their average wait time is 4 months so we are way over the average. I don't understand what is so unappealing about us but I plan to figure it out. I really hope and pray that we do not have to wait too much longer.

One Last Ditch Effort

I finally heard back from my RE's office. My FSH level was 9.4 and my estradiol level was 49. The FSH is a tad higher than he likes (he prefers under 8.5) but its not abnormally high unless its 10 or higher. Also, since they only saw one antral follicle on the US, they do not recommend IVF. My last option is to have additional surgery to attempt to remove the adhesions that are causing my ovary to be trapped against the pelvic wall. I have a consult with a surgeon next week to get his thoughts on whether additional surgery is worth it. This doctor is supposedly a phenomenal surgeon and a lot of doctors send their more difficult cases of pelvic adhesions and endometriosis to him. My RE said that if we can free the ovary and elimimate most of the adhesions that I will at least have a chance of conceiving with an IUI cycle. I figure its worth the consult. Wish me luck!